GOD loves me...`*
*Tukata - the doll*~

*-A graduate
*-Getting older, becoming younger
*-231084
*-Still seeking GOD
*-A tomboy in skirts



___conttact miee*~

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*-faithful_jesus_84@hotmail.com

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*-crazygal@cheerful.com


~*Likes*~

*-Spicy and sour food *-Music
*-Catcus & tulips *-Boardgames
*-Ice skating *-Volleyball
*-Dancing *-Stoning
*-Looking @ sky *-Seaside
*-Dolphin *-Seashells & Starfishs

~*Loves*~

*-someone.. so near yet so far
*-boardgames
*-Above all ,GOD




~*Life goals*~

*-missions in thailand
*-to get marry
*-stay in thailand
*-to have kids
*-to see GOD



~wisshex*~

*-serve god
*-to be able to glorified God in my jobs
*-that I have less troubles in BGR
*-someone to remember his promise
*-to serve in thailand full time


__darlinnkx*~

Liying* CG29*
Roger* Carine*
Grace* Regina*
Xiaodong* Mark*
My photos* Fang Yu*
cyril* Yvonne*
Kitty* Justin*
Matthea* Carine*
Matthias* Da Jie*
Dori* Multi purpose*
Joanne* ZD*
Siyin* Victor*
Darlene* Isaac*


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CoPyRiGhTtEdd --
*-mRs_NuRhAiKeL*



Thursday, July 26, 2007
Hurt

If you never like me.... is ok... But dont fool ard wit my feelings... Dont make me like u and left me there n expect me to treat nothing happens... i m a ger i ve diginity de ... dun keep hurting me... I ve been vomiting blood nwadaes... i dunnoe wat wrong.. i veri scared i mite nt b able to c u anymore... i ve fallen for u ... even a guy who likes me knew tt ... thanks for feeling happy if i gt a bf ... u noe u make me tears ... make my heart break... shatter all my hopes ... dun make me like u more than a fren than tell me u actuallie treat as a fren... i m nt a thick skin ger... i dun wan to keep guessing anymore... is enough... if u wan to use me as a shield ... u ve done it u ve succeed ... u wan someone to care n take care of u ... u gt it... u wan fun.. u gt it .... u make me fall for u so deeply but u oso hurt me tt deeply until i lose a fren lose a guy tt likes me .... hw many times.. i hope tt u reali meant those 3 words u sae ... but i noe if i believe u do i ll b disappointed... hw many times i hope those hugs n kisses mean sth... but i tell myself u jus treat me as fren... hw many times i try to brush away all ur cares n concerns as jus frens... hw many times i tell myself those things u sae r for fun ... but @ the same no of times i still hope i mean sth to u .. but each time i disappointed each time i m hurt each time i avoid all these in front of u cos i dun wan to lose u .. hw many times i hope i reali can tt someone u love or even like... but i m wrong.. i m truly wrong.... veri wrong.... hw many times i hope those gifts n photos mean sth to u .. but i m wrong... 1 by 1 all the guys who like me left me ... cos they felt my heart is occupied... i shldnt even fall for u... i feel so thick skin nw.... hw cum a supposingly gd fren make me hurt so much...

___herre with miee*~
10:54 AM
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Sunday, July 08, 2007
Confuse State

I realise to fall in love is so hard ... It seems so easy for many pple jus like each other and go together ... Is it they never think through it or realli their love is jus so simple ? Sharing doesnt mean mus have solution de lor ... Haha but tt seems to b general assumption... Asking is that the onli solution to a prob that seems to exist in a blissful environment ?? Will asking spoilt that blissfulness?? If asking generates the same ans, I think i rather nt think and ve any ans... Letting go became harder without asking or with asking ? Sometimes it is a so simple matter or r/s but bcame veri complicated jus bcos of someone indecisiveness or fear..... Asking may result in loss of watever that is available now... Is tt y pple holding on to sth tt may a lie rite frm the start? Why do pple keep holding sth when everione tells them tt it is bad , not good ??? Crying seems to b good hobby sometimes... Why pple wan to mislead someone when pple dun even like someone ? For fun? Spare tyre? Companion? Mayb confusion is contagious ... The 3 words wat they mean to a supposedly close fren ? What does intimacy means to close fren ? Wat r/s is tt ? Take advantage ? Exploit ? Forget someone is an impt lesson to learn .... Will actions be misread? Why do them is they will be misread by someone? Bcos they think that person wun misread?
Why pple like to probe into pple private life? For fun ? Why pple need to b so inquistive? Why pple need to so kpo? Why pple can accuse someone else when they r @ fault? Is bcos they think they ve no fault? Or they think being kpo is correct the person whose life they kpo abt is wrong ? Concern? All tis so call concern may bring more misery to tt person... though to others all tt questioning means nothing ...

记得爱 所有幸福的片段

所以才一直忘记要离开

伸出手 继续勇敢付出我的爱

原地不动的等待

记得爱 是我给过的答案

就不再 考虑应该不应

一滴落进无边无际的大海

至少我们都 活得没有遗憾


___herre with miee*~
11:58 AM
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