GOD loves me...`*

Monday, December 27, 2004

Todae ... went over to collect my mp3 player but make me so angry .... haha... but enjoy shopping for little joel seah .... alot of clothes look so nice on him .... haha .... I share the gift wit yucong ... n went there saw little joel ...so cute !!!

___herre with miee*~
5:17 AM
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Sunday, December 26, 2004
The ans

After so long struggling wit my feelings ... I finally I noe who is the one tt I reali like even I noe we r impossible ... is LJ ...

___herre with miee*~
7:42 AM
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+mas Eve ...

+mas eve ... tt dae tot tt i ll stay @ hm n study ... but LJ msg me n the rest to invite us to Ochard for sight seeing and photo taking ... It was veri excited in the sense tt I gt to see LJ after so long ... But he arh ... bluff me n er jie n xiaodong ... suppose to meet @ borders @ 9-9.30 He ... came late n went to Heeren instead ... make us walk all the way tt to heeren ... then I kana sprayed ... damm sad lor .... there we make Lj to treat us drinks ... Haha !!! He jus came dwn frm his workplace ... so tiring for him .... then we meet the rest of pple .... like xiao yao they all ... then we walk ... walk .... but mus go thru all the roads where no pple walk n no deco de cos @ the main rd alot of pple keep spraying foam on pple ... We keep avoiding tis pple ... then we ve photo taking ... then I sat o n the roadside cos i m tired n hungry ... but they finally remember me ask me take photos ... in front of Mount Elizabeth ??? on +mas eve ... then we go all the way to tangs where alot of pple left us cos it is getting late le ... like xiaoyao , andrew , zeli went back 1st ... . .... then @ far east plaza ... LJ buy us dinks .... somehw so touched tt we never miss the tuan qi idea ... n we go goodwoodhotel tt take photo .... then hm sweet hm ... the west side pple ve a free ride cos LJ drives .... but we ve to walk back to Heeren ...Hm I cum ... i blur until left n rite cant differeniate .... hai ... make him U-turn @ inapproporiate place where he cant U turn ... gt camera somemore .... veri scare he gt into trouble cos it will affect him as a doc in the future ....

___herre with miee*~
7:04 AM
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Wednesday, December 22, 2004
Last dae @ metta

Todae ...finally end our stay in metta ... n last chance to c zhiyu n sally n the rest ... feel sad to leave them esp zhiyu .... i noe i m favouritism but I jus feel moved n touched by zhiyu actions ... tbhough he is quiet but he is knowledgable .... n sally oso veri cute ... chin buay ... so happy to c her liten up nt so moody animore .. Bought them sweets ... n 2 bookmarks for zhiyu n sally .... they reali deserve them !!! Eat log cake todae ... feel appreciated wit the cert n the gift ... the way zhiyu speak to me is my greatest reward ... Zhiyu ..u rockz !!!

___herre with miee*~
9:53 AM
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Performance !!!!

After 4 performances ... for the mime n dance ... I thank GOD for all the daes esp in orchard where the performances r in the open so if rain , performance ve to be canceled ... BUT nuthing happens ... No rain ... hooray !!! GOD is almighty even when cd player dun work ... He makes it work !!! The fun n excitement in painting pple face n tying pple hair is so much huge ... Reali fun ... Gt to noe my bro n sis more .. like their skin type , hair .... today is the last performance ... we ve done veri well wit the help of GOD guidance n blessings wit pple like weilin , meng yew , florence , lindy etc ... SO touched to c all of them .... oso in the process ... noe pple tt i seldom ve time to keep in touch like xueling , yucong ....

___herre with miee*~
9:41 AM
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Another week pass ..

Is the last week @ the metta ... love them so much ... miss them ... we finally finish the photo frames , lamp shades , candle lite holders ... .hooray !!!! Saw zhiyu n the rest then realise how well they behave compare to the metta home pple ... metta home pple dun even noe how to differentiate what is clean and not clean ... unlike zhiyu they all , they nt onli noe cleanliness n noe what is right n wrong veri well behaved n smart ... So happy to b wit them ... ....

___herre with miee*~
9:24 AM
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Monday, December 13, 2004

Todae ... went back sch in the morning to discuss wit Daniel abt my PP ... damm stress ... stress until yesterdae dream of the KK doctors .... ( damm lame lor ) ...
Then rush dwn to Metta ... they r learning hw to do folding of paper ... they fold a mouth and a boat ... Daniel name his mouth ong ... he is crazy sia ... veri attached to the paper pet .... nearly flew to a drain ... HAha I saved it ... he damm anxious .... Looking @ him & his ong is damm funnie ... Learning dancing time le .... most of them r catching up .... Raymond is getyting frm bad to worse ... been toking to the gers ... so I pray that we can learn to handle him .. n teach him .... as for adrian ...he is getting bolder tot tt he can get away wit things tt he did wrong by saying sorrie ... been toking to edmund ... learn tt he reali into buddhism ... n I pray tt he will see the truth n light in the true GOD ... n we share quite a no of things ... Singing time ... everione in cls A love to sing man ..... Sally pulls me up to sing wit her n i pull meimei along ... cos i dunnoe the song ...so pai seh ..
Get pay le ...... gt $$$ so happy ... n i ve a chat wit yi jie abt BRG thingy ... seeing his prob ... make me feel tt BGR is a troublesome thing ... But I ve faith that wit GOD guidance he will be able to pull thru ... Gt a chance to tok to SI Te after so long n heard he sick ... so sad .... Pray tt he recover fast and his parents nt ard to take care of him .... He seem to lose his faith in love after the breakup ....so pray tt he will stand up again .... Did ve a chat wit hong ming too ... then realise working wit pple nee tolerance ... n patience ... esp with pple u nt happy ...
I will treasure the time I ve in metta ... cos is so fulfiling n happy ... .GOD teach me hw to bless the pple there wit ur Love , care n concern .... n lead them back to U ...

___herre with miee*~
8:53 AM
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Sunday, December 12, 2004
Thanks ... Javen

I so blur ... help Javen gt punished ...drink the digusting drink he make .... that makes me vomit until siao ... n I damm hungry nw ...Hai .... Stupid ... reali stupid

___herre with miee*~
4:40 AM
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Win...Lose...

Todae .... kana bluff ...go back sch then realize that I dun need to go back cause practise CANCELLED .... I was DRENCHED .... look like a stupid wet chicken ... HAI !!!!
Saw Josh n weide n javen & many more pple ..... todae nt like normal .... so weird ... even josh tinks so ... tt bad .... I feel that I can be nanny le cause I can play wit kids n entertain them ... GOD tell me whether m I up to it ... I saw shiyi frm Delta of 4E2 that I ve lose contact for like 4 yrs le ... feel damm gd .... I finally draft ... the 1st .... Will tis be my last ???? WHY do I draft ??? Cause I like or did it for somebody ... I reali ve no idea ... I play against weide n I lose like mad .... then I gt play against ____ ... I WON ..... ( wit my shifu , weide 's help ) ...____ feel inferior that he loses to a super blur , beginner , cmi person which is me ...***HaHa*** I feel gd that he loses to me but as the same time , I feel bad .... I whine when I play wit him ( little gal ... haha ) ...He ve veri big actions when he loses .... HE still gives me all the cards ... I ve mixed feelings nw ... veri confused ....
I feel GOD drifting cos I never spend enough time wit him ... Reali need him .....

___herre with miee*~
4:10 AM
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Friday, December 10, 2004
Fun dae @ Metta

Todae ... we ve janahni and meimei back wit us ... they r well n healthy back frm sickness .... so happy ... we ve so much fun when we try to cum up wit dance in 1/2 hr ... ( we r smart lor !!) ..... I m so touched that they reali learn veri fast esp zhiyu n they enjoy themselves ... Though I m sick wit gastrics , i still feel gd abt the dance ... though we oso abit blur abt the dance ... n ve mistake .... I m fierce towards adrian ... cos i find him disobedience .... bullying other pple ... though i feel bad ... n i find that my patience is building up .... thru teaching them dance ... toking to them ..... Wat touches me the most is ... zhiyu sae bye evonne to me ... ve eye contact wit me n smile ... I feel so happy n touch by what he did ... Reali so so so touched ... cant express the happiness n sense of achievement i ve ...

___herre with miee*~
7:20 PM
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Time ....

Time passes ... Time flies ... Knowing weide is abt 4 mths plus .... yesterdae then I realise hw nice is weide is a frenz to me ... even to an extent to help in things that can ruin his reputation .... He is willing to help me in imposing as my bf so that my customer will never cum n irriate me as I m scare ....

___herre with miee*~
6:45 PM
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Dae @ Metta ..

This week start my attachment ... Started for 4 daes le ... though mon & tue don ve much interaction wit the ID ... but learn to tok to them and treat them normally ... they r smart !!! they noe more abt tv shows than me ... One of them that is closest to me is Sally ... She likes to sing and realli remembers all the lyrics of the song ...she is alwaz the one who cum to me 1st when I cum and hold me ... She likes to be pretty and dye her hair ... noe the trend ... then gt adran ... the 1st time i see him ...he is like a little boy ... he is so cute... when we shake hands ...he sae gd morning to us except to daniel he sae selmat hari raya cos he tink daniel is a malay ... so funnie ... gt jin peng ... he is so handsome ...like so ani of us ... No sign of ID in him ... he is so talkative ... veri excited to c daniel kor kor ... but alwaz gt bullied by another ger , she will ask him to shut up and pull his ear ... so heartbroken to c her bullying him ... but to her reasons for doing so ( is so funnie !!!) ... is she tink he alwaz drools when toking to gers ... n she dun like it ... **wonder is she jealous !!! haha** ... cant forget zhiyu ... he is so quiet ... but so knowledgable n so smart ... he noe alot things ... though he alwaz in a daze and so blur ... but looking @ him ... make me want to tok to him more ...care for him ... love him the way he is ... he is so happy wit his loneliness ... alwaz looking @ books ... he motivates me to tok to him and the rest ... to care for them .. he loves computer games ... We all go orchard on wed... n sally chose me to b her partner ... ( nearly ve heart attack sia ) ... she is nt stable ...so she tends to fall esp going up & dwn escalator n into the train n stairs ... she almost push me dwn the escalator by mistake ... n we nearly gt knock by the mrt door cause she is scare of the door when it beeps ... but all these bcum our own jokes n comedies ... we ve more man power when kit ( yuli 's frenz ) , jason , kevin , PM ( amelia 's clsmate ) came to help out ... as for me .. i gt to noe kevin more thru toking to him on the way dwn ... eat @ mac but i keep vommiting ... so much fun even though nearly gt accident ...but everithing is fun ... n so exciting to learn sth new each dae ... n we did so many photo frames ... i suddenly feel tt i so creative ...

Todae gt to wake up later cause our dear TF Yuli being nice to us ... so fun to chat wit Amelia on the way to the centre ... tok until nearly miss the stop ... left the 2 of us to run the whole show ... during the art n craft ... zhiyu is so smart .. he draw santa claus ... snowman ... star ... n the way he writes his name is so nice ... I m so touched to c him smile esp when i do hand print ... he is so amazed ... then i so sad .. cause my cd missing n i feel so guilty ... tt wati teacher checke verione bags ... n they sae they din steal/take my cd ... I feel so bad ... :(

___herre with miee*~
12:30 AM
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Thursday, December 09, 2004

My earthlings... but so sad the HEAD not here !!!

___herre with miee*~
9:06 AM
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