GOD loves me...`*
*Tukata - the doll*~

*-A graduate
*-Getting older, becoming younger
*-Still seeking GOD
*-A tomboy in skirts

___conttact miee*~

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*-Spicy and sour food *-Music
*-Catcus & tulips *-Boardgames
*-Ice skating *-Volleyball
*-Dancing *-Stoning
*-Looking @ sky *-Seaside
*-Dolphin *-Seashells & Starfishs


*-someone.. so near yet so far
*-Above all ,GOD

~*Life goals*~

*-missions in thailand
*-to get marry
*-stay in thailand
*-to have kids
*-to see GOD


*-serve god
*-to be able to glorified God in my jobs
*-that I have less troubles in BGR
*-someone to remember his promise
*-to serve in thailand full time


Liying* CG29*
Roger* Carine*
Grace* Regina*
Xiaodong* Mark*
My photos* Fang Yu*
cyril* Yvonne*
Kitty* Justin*
Matthea* Carine*
Matthias* Da Jie*
Dori* Multi purpose*
Joanne* ZD*
Siyin* Victor*
Darlene* Isaac*

December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 April 2006 May 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 October 2007 June 2008 July 2008

CoPyRiGhTtEdd --

Monday, July 07, 2008

My throat hurts extremely badly... i seem to msake everione angry wit me with my health .... i make my mum angry ... make my bf worried even @japan ... he ve to call me ... waste his money.... cant go work ... i m afraid to change job wit my colleagues... scared they nt happy... scared my rice bowl.... I m veri scared... I veri xin ku.... I wan to c my dear !!

___herre with miee*~
8:25 AM

Missing ...

Ytd dear flew off to Japan already... missing him already... Todae suppose to be my 1st day of work but .... ytd due vomiting and coughing of large amount of blood... scared my dear n myself... my dear pay for my doc fee even when he cant be wit me... the doc sae mayb internal bleeding need to go emergency unit in hospital ... I am so scared tt i cant c my dear anymore.... I cried alot... called my dear ... sms him ... he is veri nice never scold me ... despite he is veri bz as he is checking in ... he even told his mum n aunts... and they are very nice to encourage me and ensure me tt i ll b fine ...

He said... '' dun worri dear.. nth bad ll happen to u ... u ll get well de... mus c u again ok? '' '' silly ger, dun wori abt me. me as strong as a bull.'' '' can de. u promise me nth happen to u k? promise?'' ''God ll bless my gd gal. '' '' The plane taking off soon. See you dear :) ''

C his msgs make me wan to cry and i miss him even more... I cried myself to slp ytd.... c i saw lot of his msges n pics... hope he can take care of him ... japan very cold ... n he ve cough and his neck sprain .. no one massage for him so sad ... waiting for him to b back...

___herre with miee*~
12:13 AM

Tuesday, June 17, 2008
Being together

Until now... i and him already 10mths .... Todae is our 10th mth anniversary ... is also the dae he said let be frens again .... I dunnoe hw to react... I told myself I must think of him 1st .... I cant be selfish .... but I still yearn the care, concern and joy when we r together... Issit I am a girl that I hope he will spend some time toking to me when he with me and not tok abt games... and not more concern abt games than me or other kins... isit playing games more impt than sending me hm ... he told other fren he need to b responsible cannot leave work halfway send me off and ask her replace his shift ... but y he can ask me to replace his shift to play games wit his frens? He think that he spends alot of time with me... ya in cafe when he work .... at my hse when he wan to slp , in his hse when he wan to play games.... he sees me talk abt his paper, his games, his tv show .... is I dont know hw to handle him or issit he reali jus see me as a fren... Did we mix friendship wit love ? I realise I ve never cry so much b4.... Despite all the negative things my mum sae, feelings I feel ... even disobeying God , I still with him ... Why? Why I cant let go?
When I see ger ger like tt, i dunnoe hw to help her .... i c her i c myself ... I dunnoe hw long can we go on .... Y I cant leave ? Y i cant b firm n jus move on ? Why? Why m i so thick skin ? I dont know... I am so tired.............

___herre with miee*~
12:35 PM

Thursday, October 18, 2007

Now I have gastroenteritis.... so sick... miss him even more ...dont know how I got gastroenteritis also... Wonder what is he doing now ... My mum always tease me say that what if my bf is not straight and just using me as a shield? I will always believe my bf is 100% straight n love me .... I trust him .... next week is my birthday... but he is not around ... Actually i don't mind not celebrating... but mayb i just want to spend with him on the my bdae.... Hope he can do well for the competition. 'Jiayou' Dear !!

___herre with miee*~
6:32 PM

Touching moments

Ytd is the last dae before my dear fly to Germany.. I am very touched by the fact he remembered my birthday ... even though he wont be in Singapore to celebrate wit me ... he bought me a mango ice cream cake from swensens to surprise me ... i m veri touched even though i din tell him that ... i reallie dont want to lose him ... even though i find him abit when we r alone n when we r with others.... i miss u dear... my birthday wish - is to grow closer to God, he is able to noe God and he will b safe n sound in Germany and come back safely and his assignment to be handed up on time...

___herre with miee*~
2:53 AM


Being with an non Christian is so hard... it is the biggest struggle.... How to form a Christ centered family.... very scared we will break ... but i really love him ....

___herre with miee*~
2:45 AM

Thursday, August 30, 2007

Everyone wants to be loved..., loved to be loved..... But do they get it ? When you love some one too deeply.... pple just think u r thick skin.... why? Loving some one is so hard... Rejecting someone is also hard... I tot being in a r/s is veri happy but i m nt ... why? I love him so wat... we r together so wat ? he is a non christian ..... hai ... wat can i do? I m stress... Why mus pple force us declare ? then y mus they cum in btw us? they oso like him ? The mastermind of all gossips like my bf ? Why do they ve to sae or do so much ? They wan to break us up ? Why? Wat can I do? I dont want all tt anymore? Why cant they leave alone ? I dont want to fight with him over all tt. Wat can i do? Give him up? I dont noe

___herre with miee*~
3:27 AM

What Girls do when She is in love

Realize that the girl holding onto u is
perfect in her own special way.

The way she laughs.
The way she sleeps.
The way she loves you.
The way she tries to please you.
Always remember that.

She can always get up and walk away,
getting someone else who can love her
For all you know, there is someone out
there wooing her already, but she is
rejecting, a maybe perfect love for

There might also be someone out there.
who is willing to love her more than
are loving her now.
Fulfill her every need and love her as
much as she loves you.
Understand that.

Imagine this, guys.
When you are holding her today, and you
cheat on her by hugging and kissing
another gal.
And then you run back to her.
And u do the same.
But you see love in her eyes.
What do you think?
Do you feel the hurt?
Can you feel the guilt?

She loves you not because you are good
looking, have money, buy her things,
make her parents happy, or that you
a car.

She loves you for who you are.
Your every touch, every word you say,
everything you do.
Guys, cherish and appreciate your girl.
Don't break her fragile heart.
She is the only one who can love you
that way.

You won't wanna regret letting go of
that special girl you have.
For everything she has done for you,
least you can do is to give her
unconditional love as she has given to

___herre with miee*~
3:18 AM

Thursday, July 26, 2007

If you never like me.... is ok... But dont fool ard wit my feelings... Dont make me like u and left me there n expect me to treat nothing happens... i m a ger i ve diginity de ... dun keep hurting me... I ve been vomiting blood nwadaes... i dunnoe wat wrong.. i veri scared i mite nt b able to c u anymore... i ve fallen for u ... even a guy who likes me knew tt ... thanks for feeling happy if i gt a bf ... u noe u make me tears ... make my heart break... shatter all my hopes ... dun make me like u more than a fren than tell me u actuallie treat as a fren... i m nt a thick skin ger... i dun wan to keep guessing anymore... is enough... if u wan to use me as a shield ... u ve done it u ve succeed ... u wan someone to care n take care of u ... u gt it... u wan fun.. u gt it .... u make me fall for u so deeply but u oso hurt me tt deeply until i lose a fren lose a guy tt likes me .... hw many times.. i hope tt u reali meant those 3 words u sae ... but i noe if i believe u do i ll b disappointed... hw many times i hope those hugs n kisses mean sth... but i tell myself u jus treat me as fren... hw many times i try to brush away all ur cares n concerns as jus frens... hw many times i tell myself those things u sae r for fun ... but @ the same no of times i still hope i mean sth to u .. but each time i disappointed each time i m hurt each time i avoid all these in front of u cos i dun wan to lose u .. hw many times i hope i reali can tt someone u love or even like... but i m wrong.. i m truly wrong.... veri wrong.... hw many times i hope those gifts n photos mean sth to u .. but i m wrong... 1 by 1 all the guys who like me left me ... cos they felt my heart is occupied... i shldnt even fall for u... i feel so thick skin nw.... hw cum a supposingly gd fren make me hurt so much...

___herre with miee*~
10:54 AM

Sunday, July 08, 2007
Confuse State

I realise to fall in love is so hard ... It seems so easy for many pple jus like each other and go together ... Is it they never think through it or realli their love is jus so simple ? Sharing doesnt mean mus have solution de lor ... Haha but tt seems to b general assumption... Asking is that the onli solution to a prob that seems to exist in a blissful environment ?? Will asking spoilt that blissfulness?? If asking generates the same ans, I think i rather nt think and ve any ans... Letting go became harder without asking or with asking ? Sometimes it is a so simple matter or r/s but bcame veri complicated jus bcos of someone indecisiveness or fear..... Asking may result in loss of watever that is available now... Is tt y pple holding on to sth tt may a lie rite frm the start? Why do pple keep holding sth when everione tells them tt it is bad , not good ??? Crying seems to b good hobby sometimes... Why pple wan to mislead someone when pple dun even like someone ? For fun? Spare tyre? Companion? Mayb confusion is contagious ... The 3 words wat they mean to a supposedly close fren ? What does intimacy means to close fren ? Wat r/s is tt ? Take advantage ? Exploit ? Forget someone is an impt lesson to learn .... Will actions be misread? Why do them is they will be misread by someone? Bcos they think that person wun misread?
Why pple like to probe into pple private life? For fun ? Why pple need to b so inquistive? Why pple need to so kpo? Why pple can accuse someone else when they r @ fault? Is bcos they think they ve no fault? Or they think being kpo is correct the person whose life they kpo abt is wrong ? Concern? All tis so call concern may bring more misery to tt person... though to others all tt questioning means nothing ...

记得爱 所有幸福的片段


伸出手 继续勇敢付出我的爱


记得爱 是我给过的答案

就不再 考虑应该不应


至少我们都 活得没有遗憾

___herre with miee*~
11:58 AM

Monday, June 04, 2007

Personality Type Report for Evonne

Your Personality Preferences


You are social and outgoing. You are most comfortable when with other people
and experiencing the world first hand. Interaction with others and first hand experiences
energize you. It is not unlike you to start conversations with strangers. You have a
preference for the outer world: people, activities, and things. Other people provide you with
a mirror, sounding board to help you develop ideas and plans. Being alone may sap your energies.
Your concept of the world is derived from experiencing it firsthand and then drawing conclusions.


While you do process information through your senses you add a twist to your processing by
relying on intuition and serendipity. You look for undercurrents of meaning and abstractions
in what you experience physically. You do not just see things just as they are, but as what they
could be. While you may rely on common sense at times, you trust inspiration far more.


You like to have as much information as possible before making a decision. Putting off a final
decision until the last moment does not make you uncomfortable. Indeed once a decision is made,
a course plotted, you may feel a bit uneasy, because you feel bound to a certain course of action.
You would much prefer to wait and see what happens. You enjoy the opportunity to improvise. Commitments are not etched in stone to you, and are changeable.


You make decisions subjectively based upon your values and what is important to you.
How people will be affected by your decisions is important to you. You are likely to make
decisions based upon what you feel is acceptable and agreeable rather than what is logical.
Your truths are founded in your values and those of the society you live in. It is important to
remember that we are discussing how you evaluate data and make decisions, and that you rely
on your feelings to do so in no way implies you are overly emotional.

Your Personality Type


You are a very creative optimist who never has a shortage of new ideas.
You accept others as they are, like to be helpful, and are compassionate.
Your freedom and independence are very important to you. Your well-developed insight
into others and communication skills allow you to inspire those around you. You have a good
sense of humor and love to have fun.

In relationships you may turn intimacy into an all-encompassing pursuit. You are very aware
of what those around you are thinking and doing. Your people skills allow you to make friends
instantly and make almost anyone comfortable. You tend to idealize your relationships. You like your relationships to be very intense--you want to feel everything. The warmth and affection you give others is very deep and genuine.

Famous People of Your Type:

Franz Joseph Haydn, Samuel Clemens, Will Rogers, Buster Keaton, Theodor "Dr." Seuss Geisel,
Mickey Rooney, Carol Burnett, Paul Harvey, Elizabeth Montgomery, Bill Cosby, Dom Delouise,
Dave Thomas, Martin Short, Meg Ryan, Robin Williams, Sandra Bullock, Robert Downey.

Occupations Suited to Your Type Include:

Actor, artist, clergy, consultant, entertainer, entrepreneur, personal service provider, journalist, marketer, media specialist, mediator, recruiter, sales person, business owner, teacher, and writer.

___herre with miee*~
9:46 PM